As I opened my eyes and for the first time cried,
Delicately in my mom’s arms I lied.
My existence came into place.
Happiness could be seen on my family’s face.
Years jumped by and rolled.
From a baby into a young kid did my nature fold.
Innocence poured out from each word i uttered.
The joy of childhood mischief, on the top always fluttered.
Life I took as it came per day.
Who was bothered as I managed to keep tension away.
As a young girl I grew up and there came a twist,
Life got restricted into a hand fist.
Boundaries were laid at every step taken,
For every action , why was i mistaken?
The more I got to know the world around me.
Like hungry hounds, they killed my mind’s purity.
My goodness forcefully they snatched away.
Blunting me that it doesn’t exist in today’s day.
I was forced to pick the harsh world’s policy,
Truth; Commitment; Trust and Kindness seemed to be deleted from their dictionary.
My heart lost the battle against my mind,
And genuinely nice friends became rare to find.
To a person had I never harmed.
Until it seemed to be my foolishness, I got alarmed.
I am not that bad as much they always pointed out.
Circumstances made me one and the future is still a doubt.
Deep inside lies the real ‘me’,
I wish the bounds surrounding it, could someone please break free?
At the end of the day, I am occupied with guilt,
And my conscience stands on ground unstable like silt.
What have I let myself to be?
The world that attracts outwardly, in reality has a different story.
I feel like running away somewhere.
The world’s unpredictable commands are difficult to bear.
I starve to go back and relieve my childhood’s each day.
Where to laugh and smile , I didn’t have to pay.
And again could I have a perfect sound sleep listening to mama’s song ;
I wish that my childhood would have stretched long.
God! Please give my peace and happines back to me;
Because today I suffocate living as a person that the world has made me to be.